A promise I'll do my best not to break.

Hello, readers. This Friday, I found out I am not doing so well in school. I failed my World History exam. I ended up with a C+ for the quarter. I got a C+ on the Health exam. I got a B+ in Health. I have a GPA of 2.7 for the quarter. That's not merit roll, even. I can make High Honor roll, so why didn't I? It's my own fault. I didn't study enough, or as much as I should've. I get distracted by the internet, by the phone, by everything electronic. I don't awlays pay attention in class, and sometimes can't stay awake. I don't put effort into some of the homework. And this is my fault.

Here is a promise.

The last half of this school year will be better. I will push myslef as far as I can go to get straight A's the last 2 grading periods. I don't care how hard I have to try, I will do it. I will study until 3 AM every night if I have to. I will give every ounce of my being to paying attention in class and taking in the information. I will try to learn ALL the material, and ace all my tests, no matter how hard they can be. If I don't, I'm not trying hard enough. I will strive espcially in World History. I will do all the work. I won't screw up. I can do better than what I did this 2nd quarter, and I'm gonna. If I get a B, it won't be good enough. I know what I'm capable of, and I'm gonna show it. I won't go on the internet as much. Maybe I can actually get into reading books non-stop again. Stop going on MySpace and Facebook and AIM. Stop watching TV all the time. Not answer the phone and waste time on dumb conversations with a certain someone. Instead of going on the internet, I'll study. Friends--do me a favor. Don't let me on the internet past 11:15, unless it's for school. PLEASE. Help me with this. It'll be hard. I need support.

It'll work. I know it.

--Jason.

So I lay my head back down,and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours.

Today was by no means good. So, yesterday, a certain someone tells me about her and a certain someone "doing things" together. And she told me to "fuck off," which seh was really in no position to do. I don't wanna use names, though. And that same person has nerve to try to talk to me today. Just like they thought they could be my friend after everything they did to me, with no repercussions or anything. =
So, i go to school today, English is okay, and so is Biology. Spanish was good, cause MichaelBleich can make anyone laugh, but 4a started getting me down. Right when I walked into the Student Council room, who should give me a nasty look in the hallway but that fucking bitch Angela. I am so sick of her shit. Courtney was getting on my nerves again. 4b was alright. 4c was the same, but Courtney pissed me off again. 5ab is gym, which I actually enjoy. I hope that'll be a good class. World History, we started learning about World War I, so my attention is actually kept. Algebra was boring as fuck, as per usual.
After school, I had drama, and we were learning our songs. Me and Ellie were walking around the school, and I was sorta venting, I felt bad. =/ We came back to the cafeteria and no one was there, and no one was answering the auditorium door, so we thought we were in trouble. But it was in the choir room, so we felt dumb. xD We learned "Another Op'nin, Another Show." This is where I started to not feel so good. I don't know what voice part I am, tenor or bass, because as I learned earlier this month, Courtney Freyahuf cannot be trusted.
So I didn't know whether to sing higher or lower-I can do both, but I don't know which I'm better at or anything. We then learned part of "Kiss Me, Kate." And that was alright. I was talking to Ellie about how I was getting really worried about my grades ever sinve last semester, and that World History is so hard for me and I have a lot of homework tonight. I just worry, because I still don't have my fucking printer hooked up, and I need it. After we were done, Jeremy said he could give me a ride home, so I stopped worrying. could give me a ride home. So, I was about to have a breakdown, right there in the hall as I was walking to my locker.
I'm worried about the singing now, cause I don't know what the hell I am, I have studying to do, which I'm fine with, but I don't enjoy. Dad's 1 year is coming up in 2 weeks, Angela's being a bitch even after this is all "over." And I don't know what to do with my life. : I am not having a very good time living right now, I just hope I can get everything sorted out and just decide what to do, who to trust, what to say, and everything. If I don't do it soon, I don't know what's gonna happen.
After my almost-breakdown, I Jeremy took me home. He had a truck today instead of his car, so it was pretty crowded. I got home and my brother autiomatically started acting like a jackass. >: Well, I have a lot of stuff to do today, so I'm not gonna make this much longer.

--Jason.

Champagne's for celebrating (I'll have a martini)

Heyheyhey! So today was cool. No more exams, since I took my last one--Honors English--yesterday. I went home after student council, since Abbey's aunt gave me a ride. :) I watched Pineapple Express, and then did random stuff. I went to school today, and it was alright.
1-We did "Would you rather...?" debate-style. I got "Would you rather jump from a 1000 foot cliff secured to a rope, connected to a tree by a knot you made (and you're not good) or a knot by a knot-badge-possessing-Eagle Scout. I said I'd do it myself--the Eagle Scout could be a psycho killer & cut the rope. :P
2nd period-new seats. Blech.
3rd-MRS. REA. We did new stuff. Blech.
4a-Did a survey thing. 4b, Missy told me of her whole weekend. It was a LONGASS story! XD 4c-Missy showed me pictures of her in a Michael Myers mask, Jeremy with a monkey on his head, and her and Steff in her truck. Interesting pictures, they were. :)
5ab-Started gym! And Mrs. Cormell is really nice. We're the smallest class-12 people, and there aren't any other classes that period. Talked the whole time. XD
6-Actually worked, I need to do good in History from now on. Got my whole map done! :O! It's a start.
7-Did stuff with line graphing.
I am gonna do better this semester. I blame myself because I got internet and didn't always do my homework because of that. =( I'll do better!

Went to drama after--we got a script and the score. I need to get these 20$ jazz shoes. They seem fun. XD Uhh, they read through the script, got a ride home from Sam. Amanda gave me my music, and I uploaded, bu the order of the songs was very fucked up, so I took a while to fix that. I'm gonna do homework in a bit, eat, take a shower, read through that Drama club stuff, and then watch Nip/Tuck(?) or read Eclipse. =) I'm turning my life around! :D

--Jason.

River flows in you.

[[Ashley didn't guess the last song lyric title. Mwahaha! It was a hard one!]] It was Desert Song by My Chemical Romance.<3

OK. So the last few days have been okay. I took Honors Biology and W. History exams on Weds. I think I aced Biology, but I sorta did a shit job on the World History. Oops. I got a ride home from Emma and was home around 11:45. I had this pizza thing, watched an episode of Always Sunny, and took a nap around 12:30. I woke up around 4:30. I went online and did nothing the rest of the night.

Today I took my Spanish and Health exams. They were both really easy. During break yesterday, me and Sami were making ufn of that obnoxious Kelsey girl's laugh the whole time and we did it again today. :) Today on break, I had a chocolate bar and everyone was all, "Ohai, gimme yo chocolate!" And I was like "No, fool!" :P I got another ride home from Emma, but I didnt nap today. = So, Missy told me that Jeremy got to fucking see Obama. I was so jealous. : I talked to him shortly and he said it was awesome. Yay for Obama! :D

Me and Alethia played the WIkipedia game, where you both decide on a page you have to reach. We chose Rugrats. You click the random article button, and then have to click links until you get to the page you decided on! She got to Hello Kitty in like, fucking 9 clicks! :O!

Alicen showed me how to make strange smiley faces on Facebook chat. She's so funny. :) Lalala. I added playlist to my blog, by the way! Mostly just because I wanted River Flows in You to be heardb y as many people as possible. It is without a doubt, the most beautiful song I have ever heard. It was the other option for Bella's Lullaby in the Twilight movie, and it pwns the one they picked. I got hooked on that song today, and got Britney and Claire to like it. :D

And that leads us up to now, where I am currently trying to convince Britney to get a blog. :D Bwhahaha. So, I think I'm gonna stay in bed tomorrow and watch movies and Nip/Tuck. Wewt for unproductiveness. SInce Britney is gonna read this; Hi, britney! =)

Ha, well that's all ferr now.
--Jason

From the lights to the pavement, from the van to the floor.

Today started like shit. My bus fucking passed me up, so I had to get a ride to school and I was late. Ugh. We did review in 1st and 2nd period. 3rd period, I took the Spanish speaking exam. I got a 35/36! W00t! 4a, me and Missy went right down to Sawyer's room for the cast list. I didn't get a role, but I'm in the Male Ensemble, which Hammy says is good. I don't really care about not getting a role. :) Missy got a solo! Kate will be played by Krista, Fred by Travis, Lois by Hammy, and Bill by Matt. :D I saw Krista's reaction when she read it 4b, she was so happy! :) I'm happy that she gets the lead, she seems real good for it.And Terrell got Paul! I'm happy for him, too! :D Did nothing in Health or W. History. Took the Algebra exam and it was so easy, man! :) I think I did really good on it. Got home and did random stuff. I almost fell asleep, and now I need to study for Bio and History. : Eeep! Well, I'm gona go now, I need to actually do something productive. :)
--Jason

Shotgun opera, lock and load; cock it back & then watch it go.

OK. So, I got up today at like, 12:30. I was on the computer, and me and Britney think that roles are already basically set. : Ehh, I kinda really wanna be one of the 3 guys in that song "Tom, Harry or Dick." It's a fun song. :) Uhh,Christina picked me up around 2, we were at her house for a whiel doing nothing and then Emilee and Brena got there. We barely studied at all today, except I finally grip the whole concept of the Chemistry part of Bilogy now, with all the stupid little bonds and ions and atoms and shit. : Kawkz, I LOVE HER ROOM. I wanna steal it or make my room similar, whenever my mom decides to put my desk in here, and then I can put up my bulletin board and reaarange furniture. Mehh. Uhh, apparently, me, Missy, Student Council, Drama Club AND Show Choir are all gonna go to Dave and Buster's sometime. XD That'd be the best fucking day ever! So, I am, like, IN LOVE with this one song from 28 Weeks Later, it's called "28 Theme." And it's so haunting, especially if you've seen the movie. Like, it's really beautiful, but in a creepy way. :O! Yeah. Well, I didn't study World History AT ALL at Chris's, so I think I'll do that tomorrow or on Monday. : Mehh. Well, that's all for tonight, I don't really feel like typing. Ahaha.
--Jason

So. I thought about it.

Maybe I didn't do so bad in auditions after all. Maybe I really did blow everyone out of the water. EVeryone I tell this to says "What? Dude, Jason, you deserved a callback. You'er an amazing singer/actor." Everyone. So, I was thinking about this. I remember watching people go in and out of the audittorium, and I realized, I was one of the (if not only) people who didn't bring in a monologue sheet to look at. Maybe that's a good impression, that I had it memorized. And maybe the judges liked that. And I didn't stand still on stage, oh Lord, no. I hear they don't like stationary people. I projected. I hear they love projecting. Maybe I'm worrying too much. I think they liked my audition, now that I think about it...Maybe I did real good, the judges know that, and I really, truly, don't need a callback, however much i think I do.
Breanna, Britney, Kailyn, Caitlyn, Jessica, Ellie, and everyone thinks they have a role set aside for me. I don't give a damn if it's a lead, or a minor role. I want a role. I don't really wanna be in the chorus. I won't be too upset about it, but all my friends will be, which makes me feel good that they think I'm that good. I just had to get this off my chest, even though it's almost 1:00 AM. I pray I get a role. I want a solo so bad. I have hope now. We'll know on Friday. *nervous face* Bye, guys.

These words were never easier for me to say or her to second guess.

Get that one right Ashley! :P Okay, so I haven't blogged in a while....XD Uhh, I have gotten hooked on Mayday Parde & The movie "thirteen." I cry at the end every time I see it. D': Hmmm, well, today was my grandma's birthday, we went out to dinner with her. :) Then we came to our house, and my cousin attempted to learn how to play Guitra Hero. XD Sooo, tomorrow are auditions! I'm so fuckin' excited! Not really nervous, surprisingly. :) I'm at 3:12, right after Sam & Ellie. :) I need to do a little bit of work on my monologue, but I think I'll do good! :D Uhh, I have homework to finish, so this is gonna be short, sadly. Boo. To close it off, I'm learning how to play Boston by Augustana on keyboard! Holy shit, son! :D And something that really pissed me off today was when Alethia was like "The Passion of the Christ is hilarious." I wanted to fucking stab her. : Well, bye fo now! :)
--Jason.

You have to understand-this is who I am.

OK! So, i got a haircut roday, then we got my phone from Alltel! I was freaking out, cause I didnt see a red one on display, but they had it, luckily. We went to Bob Evan's and ate. i got home and walked the dog, then got to work with my celly! :D I re-entered all my old numbers and such. I have a bajillion messages. I have unlimited texting and nights and weekends. Nights: Anytime after 9:01PM. And Weekends:Friday 9:01PM-Monday-5:01AM. And unlimited texting! YAY! I got red, by the way. Comment me if you want muh new number. That's it for tonight! School tomorrow! *And I'm upset-I cant text Alphie unlimited. :( *
By the way, that song was "Wow, I can get Sexual too!" by Say Anything. :D

I called her on the phone, and she touched herself. :D

Answer that one, Ashley! XD So, guys! I'm getting my phone today! [Most likely!] W00t! I'll most likely send a text out to veveryone with my number, but where's the fun in that? :P Uhh, I found a ringtone site that should work. Sadly I lost almost all my mp3 files and i can only use a few. I think I'm gonna make it Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park or Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy [:'( At that song<3].>

It's you that ought to be holding me, I'm not containable, this time love is not sustainable.

So, today was pretty good. Happy New Year, everybody! :D So, i woke up around 2 today, but then fell asleep for another hour. I feel very worthless this break. T_T Uhh, I was playing Guitar Hero for a while, and it's impossible for me to do Scream Aim Fire on hard, mayng! Like, really fucking hard cause of the stupid little chain in the beginning. :'( My uncle came later and we went to see Yes Man at the Valley View theater. It was really funny. Go see it! :D We got McDonald's on the way to my house. I ate when I got home, then got online. I've been talking to Alethia and listening to The Ting Tings for a while now. She showed me this really perverted song. Like, REALLY pererted. Still better than Raping Little Suzie, though. I was gonna throw up after that fucked up shit. I hope whoever made that burns in eternal damnation for eternity. :D So, I am gonna go watch Old School, and maybe Mamma Mia!. I sorta talked to my mom about my new phone, and I will PROBABLY get it before break ends. YAY! Okay, well that's all fer tonight.
-Jason.