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I didn't make Show Choir. I feel so fucking crushed. Let down. Devastated. Cheated. Lied to. Odd one outed. Stupid. Untalented. It's unfair. I'm one of the four guys who don't make it, and there are people worse than me who did make it? Someone who didn't know any of the dance AT ALL, or at least keep a happy expression when he didn't? Someone who didn't know the dance or sing too amazing. I really wanted this. So fucking bad. I think it's cuz I don't have "the look." Fuck that. I'm sick of all these emotions doing this to me. There's always next year. It just won't be the same, though.

Whoa, Im on the bus making a new post. :P

Hoorah!

You guys, I haven't blogged for a while. Sorry! I have read so much! A book a day last week! Haha. :) So, today were Show Choir vocal auditions, and I was so upset. Amanda said "maybe" I would make it in, and I knew she was right. For the musical, I didn't sing for real, look where it got me then. So, her comment motivated me to be my absolute best in auditions. When they came, I wasn't nervous. I was, well, happy! Excited to sing in front of someone! Guys, I DID IT. I sang for real in front of Abe! FIRST TIME EVER! I did it!When I started singing, he looked so surprised. I think he was really happy with it! After I was done he looked so surprised, in a good way. He asked me to sing The Star Spangled Banner, and I did, in 3 ranges. I did that good! :) And then I did some other vocal thing. I thought it went good. Then i talk to Amanda. She did great in her audition, and apparently told Abe he was the first to hear me actually sing. He said he was so surprised! Guys, I think I might make it in! I'm so confident and in a great mood! =) I'll know by Thursday! :D